Watching shows like this make me feel sick and sad and weepy. It’s not because I’m disgusted by the obese. It’s not because they make me sick. It’s that I realize just how close I was to that myself, how easily I could have slipped from 300 to 400. And even now, 50 pounds gone (well, 43)… I don’t see it. I never seem to look different.

Do they ever get better? Will I?